You need to turn it off straight away. You don't want to remember what it is, what it means, because that kind of feeling is harmful, and you don't understand. You may wanna cry, and shout, and say something that might help you. But there's nothing available in the shop of life which could let it all go. And once it's outta sight, it won't let you know, it will just not be there. Wait til that day comes! It will be worthy.